I hate looking for a job.

In the beginning, it was a little exciting thinking about all the different possibilities and new experiences I would have with a new job. Now, it’s just getting frustrating. Aside from the numerous rejection letters/emails I’ve received in the past few weeks, there are no jobs out there.

I mean absolutely nothing.

I’ve searched and searched, I’ve been on craigslist 500 times, monster, hotjobs…you know name, I’ve been there. 

Job hunting is like whoring yourself out there. It’s never satisfying and most of the time you are left with this disgusting feeling that you will end up temping for the rest of your life without a career while your other friends drive by in their new BMWs….no I’ve don’t really know what it is like to whore myself but you get the idea:)

Ok, maybe I’m getting a little ahead of myself but for those of you that understand what being laid off feels like then you surely will understand how it feels to still be unemployed while your friends go off to work while you stay home. 

Yes, daytime tv is awesome but so is a paycheck. I miss my sanity, if I ever had it to begin with. 

Also, my bf is off fighting the good fight. The military is calling and he decided to answer. haha

I just need one thing to go right….oh pretty please

I’ve got to say that this month has been a little tough for me. I wish that bad things only happened in threes by for some reason the cards are against me this month.

– I lost my job…gotta love it when a company is having “financial issuses”

– My boyfriend is leaving for three months- no communication during those three months- can we say not fun?

– I’m getting super sick

So that’s three things but I didn’t include the more inane things that are going wrong mainly because I don’t want to whine throughout this entire post. I can handle one thing at a time but not at all once.

Can we say depressing?

My boss has decided to change jobs. She’s actually a great boss, I know all too well what a terrible boss is like.

She gives me good tips and does a great job….Except she boss told me that I need to sound happier on the phone.

Um, ok. Definitely wasn’t expecting that.

Happier?

She told me I should sound more cheery and use exclamation points in my emails.

I’m not sure how I feel about this. I do not like exclamation points unless it is to convey some form of anger. I! Do! Not! Like! Using! Them!

She even made me post its that say “I’m Nice”…..”I’m Friendly” and “I’m Happy.”

God, I hope that was a joke.

Anyway, anyone have any advice on how to rent my apartment really fast?

Oh, how I have missed you all. I’ve been baking but I always forget to take a picture of it. Which completely kills the idea of having a food blog. I also have to consider that I actually enjoying writing and I have missed you guys a lot. It was a lot nicer to get things off my chest, not just food recipes.

A lot has happened since my last real post.

– I’m moving to a new apartment.
– My current landlord is making my life hell.
– My amazing boss is leaving us….which sucks beyond belief.
– My boyfriend is leaving to train with the armed forces.
– Did I mention my landlord is making my life hell.

Anyway, I’m glad to be back.

See you soon!

Sidenote: For some reasons, the pictures will not correctly. I am working on it:)

 

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It actually makes me sad to see rotten food in my fridge, it happens all the time. I buy way too many vegetables or fruits and I never get around to using them.  I waste so many bananas, I have the best intentions to bring a banana to work everyday but sometimes they get brown and I just cannot eat them. Instead, I had a eureka moment….I don’t have to throw them out, I could make banana bread!  Here is the basic recipe… you can add a few variations which I will also include below. This is so easy but still so good. Please excuse my horrible photos; I will make them better over time. 

Banana Bread (Gourmet 2003) 

1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour

1 teaspoons baking soda


1/2 teaspoon cinnamon


1/2 teaspoon salt


1 large egg 

1/3 cup of unsalted butter 

1 1/3 cups brown sugar

3 cups coarsely mashed very ripe bananas (6 large) 

1 teaspoons vanilla 

Extras

1 1/3 cups walnuts 

1 1/3 chocolate chips (Ok, I realize that this is a banana bread recipe and not chocolate bread but I can eat chocolate every single day so if you want….add some chocolate delight.

Directions:

Preheat the oven to 350 and butter two pans ( or one if you choose to make one big loaf.)

Stir butter and mashed bananas in a bowl. Mix in egg, vanilla and sugar. Add the salt and baking soda to the bowl and mix. Add flour and make sure to mix it well. Pour the batter into the loaf pan.

Bake for 45 minutes. Once it looks done, cool on a rack and then eat it:)

So guys, I realize that I haven’t posted in quite a long time but that’s because I was trying to decide what to do.  I’ve decided that this will no longer be a blog about random things but a blog about ……….BAKING….. I’m excited, it will be fun.Great pictures, great recipes ….maybe some will even be fat free. Be ready for a new layout and some fresh ideas. Get hungry:) 

I’m having second doubts about this job. Don’t get me wrong, most of the people are great and there are times when I really love it but the beginning is just too hard. Wow, just writing that makes me seem like a baby.  I still have no idea what I’m doing, most of them time I’m running around thinking what have I gotten myself into. I know there is a learning curve but when will I get the hang of this? Anyway, that’s enough whining for now. I think I should really just open up a bakery. Baking cakes, some cookies…..just making people fat and happy. Ok, maybe not fat but definitely happy.  

So I had to leave work early….ok I didn’t have to but I really needed to. I hate being sick. I really really hate being sick. Thankfully, I am not that important at work….yet. So my email box was almost empty and my boss was ok with letting me leave. She’s nice like that. I sat home and did the seven million loads of laundry I had left over from the holiday weekend. I still have three more to go. We are that gross…haha I love the snow outside but I’m not a big fan of the ice. Walking outside with a very excited dog, who will not stop for anything….it’s a falling disaster.  Ok, time for me to go blow my nose for the 100th time today. Happy monday folks. 

Well, hello there. I’m sorry that I have been gone for so long but that’s what happens when you start a new job and suddenly every second is precious.

So here are some highlights:

Work: It’s going well, still really stressful. I really hope that everything will click soon because right now, it hasn’t. I’m making friends, which is a huge relief. Most of the time, I feel like I am running without my head or that people think I am incredibly stupid. But it’s ok, everything takes time so I am willing to wait and go with the flow.  

 Home: My house is so dirty…holy laundry. I just don’t have the energy to clean at all. I mean seriously, who wants to come home around 7/8 and clean?! I don’t…I don’t even want to make dinner but a girl has to eat.

 So much has happened since my last post, I don’t know where to start. Ok, the work party story I mentioned before. I had a few going out parties at my old job and they were fantastic. One of my guy friends, the one who I’ve always had a great connection with, went to the party as well. As I went to leave, he hugged me. I know everyone hugs but here’s the story behind the hug. Two of my friends were standing behind me and when my friend hugged me, I’m sure they assumed it would be short and we would leave. No, this hug lasted for like ten minutes. At first I thought I was holding on too long, so I let go…but he wouldn’t. He just kept hugging me, he told me that he would miss me a lot and that he loved me. (No, not the real love but it was still sweet.) I thought that was it so I pulled away again (now the second time I’ve pulled away) and nothing, he wouldn’t let go. A few minutes later, he gives me a kiss on the cheek, said we would see each other soon and let me go. As I left the bar, I became so sad. I remember sitting on the train actually depressed, I felt that we wouldn’t see each other again. The fact that he held on so tightly meant that it was the end.

Ok, I’m being overly dramatic because I’ve seen him almost every week for drinks with a few other coworkers. It’s nice that I get to see them and have a few drinks. I don’t usually go out during the week but going out with them is just fun.

Ok, that’s enough for now. I’m finally going to read everything that I’ve missed with you all and comment.

 

I missed you guys! 

  

I am not happy. Not happy at all.

My boyfriend has his friends over and as nice as it is that he sees them, I miss my boyfriend. I miss a clean house, I miss snuggling in bed. Cause right now, he is never around. He is always with them. ANDDDD they are messy, so messy that I actually clean up after them. Usually I wouldn’t cause it’s not my mess but there are cups everywhere, books everywhere…ahhhh. Seriously, who wants to come home after a long day of work to a fricking messy house.

Pros and Cons of the day:

Pro- Playing with my dog
Con- Slicing my hand open with a broken wine glass (major ouch and lots of blood)

Pro- My tiramisu that I made this weekend turned out to be really good.
Con- Tripping over the phone cable while my boss was conducting a conference call.

Pro- I can’t think of one. Is that bad?
Con- Not making enough cake batter for my four layer cake. Frick.